A Sad Love Story

i have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend
until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that
trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of
lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by
his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…

“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all. He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days… Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…


Then one day…

Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. Then I shouted… “Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb… and I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily… How could he…. I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on a street… with another girl… He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…as he touched the doll… I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell… Why did he gave these to me… Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that… it’s going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it. Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then…

Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted… But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!” HONK~!! “Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me. That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him… And after spending two months like a crazy person… I took out the dolls.

Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days… when we were in love…

“One…two… three…” That was how… I started to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty five…” It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…

“I love you~, I love you~” I dropped the dolls, shocked

“I….lo..ve…you??” I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
“I love you~ I love you~” It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop. I…love you… Why didn’t I realize that….That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much… I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much.

“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you… everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute…

For that… and for that reason… to me… it became courage… to live a beautiful life ..

Click!

7 Kostum Terunik Katy Perry Saat Konser

Katy Perry dikenal sebagai salah satu penyanyi yang sering tampil dengan dandanan unik, baik itu dari gaya rambut hingga busananya. Untuk busana, ia kerap mengenakan kostum yang lucu dan aneh. Yuk lihat kostum-kostum unik Katy.

1. Sexy Soldier
Katy mengenakan kostum ala tentara saat tampil di acara Z100 Jingle Ball 2010, Madison Square Garden, New York, 10 Desember 2010.

  

2. Snowman
Katy tampil bak manusia salju di acara KIIS FM Jingle Ball 2010, Los Angeles, California.

 

 

3. Candy Gown
Membuka tur California Dream di Inggris, 17 Maret 2011, mantan istri Russell Brand itu mengenakan gaun permen yang juga dihiasi kristal Swarovski merah di bagian dada.

 

4. Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang
Tampil di Montreal, Kanada, musim panas lalu, Katy mengenakan kostum yang terinspirasi dari brand cokelat Hershey Kisses.

 

5. Mint Condition
Katy memakai dress bustier dengan hiasan permen mint berbentuk roda ketika menggelar tur di London, Oktober 2011. Permen mint roda itu menghiasi seluruh gaunnya.
 

 

6. Cupcakes Gown
Pelantun ‘Fireworks’ itu mengenakan kostum yang sangat unik saat konser di Milan, Italia, Februari 2011. Dia memakai gaun yang dipenuhi cupcakes. Yummy.

 

7. Girls On Film
Tampil menyanyi di peluncuran perdana film dokumenternya, ‘Katy Perry: Part of Me’, penyanyi 27 tahun itu memakai kostum dengan hiasan gulungan film.

Copy From : 7 Kostum Terunik Katy Perry Saat Konser | INFO INDONESIA TERBARU  ;-)

 

Style, Fashion, Accessories

10 Negara Termaju di Dunia

Negara maju berbeda dengan negara modern, begitu juga dengan negara berkembang. Ketiga jenis kategori sebuah negara tersebut memiliki definisi yang berbeda - beda. Sebuah negara bisa dikategorikan sebagai negara yang maju bila HDI (The human development index) yang digunakan untuk menentukan peringkat sebuah negara termasuk ke dalam kategori sangat tinggi (high level). HDI itu sendiri dilihat dari besarnya harapan hidup, tingkat pendidikan, standar hidup, kesejahteraan, pekayanan kesehatan, dll. Namun demikian, adakalanya penilaina sebuah negara masuk ke dalam kategori termaju atau bukan juga bisa dinilai sevara subyektif dengan berbagai alasan tertentu.

 

Berikut ini adalah 10 negara termaju di dunia:

 

1. NORWEGIA

 

 

Norwegia memiliki tingkat pengangguran yang rendah. Dengan angka harapan hidup yang mencapai 80,2 tahun.

 

 

2. AUSTRALIA

 

 

Negara yang memiliki GDP (gross domestic products) sebesar USD 918,978 Milyar ini juga selama 5 tahun terakhir memiliki pendapatan perkapita sebesar USD  40.836. Selain itu, negara ini juga menduduki rangking tertinggi di dunia dalam kualitas hidup masyarakatnya.

 

 

3. BELANDA

 

 

Belanda memiliki standar pendidikan yang tinggi serta menjadi acuan standar literatur bagi negara - negara lain di dunia ini. Keadaan ekonomi Belanda yang stabil serta masyarakatnya yang menduduki rangking sebagai masyarakat yang paling bahagia du dunia lah yang membuat Belanda berhasil masuk ke dalam kategori negara termaju

 

 

4. AMERIKA SERIKAT

 

 

Siapa yang mampu menyangkal bahwa Amerika Serikat bukanlah negara maju? Sebagai tolok ukur kondisi perekonomian dunia, jelas Amerika memiliki pengaruh yang sangat kuat atas kondisi negara - negara yang lain.

 

 

5. NEW ZEALAND

 

 

Negara yang memiliki kondisi alam yang sangat indah ini memiliki GDP sebesar USD 157,877 Milyar serta pendapatan per kapita sebesar USD 35.374 untuk populasi penduduknya yang hanya berjumlah sekita 4,3 juta orang saja

 

 

6. KANADA

 

 

Kanada menduduki peringkat kedua sebagai negara terbesar di dunia setelah Rusia dan berbatasan secara langsung dengan Amerika Serikat. Masyarakat Kanada terkenal sebagai masyarakat yang emmiliki tingkat pendidikan yang sangat tinggi serta memiliki kecerdasan yang diatas rata - rata.

 

 

7. IRLANDIA

 

 

Republik Irlandia memiliki jumlah populasi penduduk yang sangat kecil. Yaitu sekitar 4,5 juta orang saja 99% penduduk Irlandia telah berhasil mengenyam pendidikan yang tinggi 

 

 

8. LIECHTENSTEIN

 

 

Tidak banyak yang tahu tentang negara ini. Liechtenstein merupakan negara dengan wilayah terkecil di dunia karena hanya seluas 160 km persegi dengan jumlah penduduk hanya sekitar 35 ribu orang saja. Namun GDP dari Liechtenstein merupakan GDP tertinggi di dunia.

 

 

9. JERMAN

 

 

Di negara - negara persatuan Eropa, Jerman merupakan negara yang memiliki ekonomi terbesar dan juga memiliki tingkat populasi terbesar juga, yaitu sekitar 82,2 juta penduduk.

 

 

10. SWEDIA

Luas wilayah Swedia hanya seluas California saja serta memiliki jumlah penduduk sekitar 9,3 juta jiwa. Jerman terkenal dengan standar kesehatan dan pendidikan yang sangat tinggi bagi penduduknya.

Coldplay - Fix You

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Coldplay - The Scientist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry

You don't know how lovely you are


I had to find you

Tell you I need you

Tell you I set you apart


Tell me your secrets

And nurse me your questions

Oh let's go back to the start


Running in circles

Coming up tails

Heads on a silence apart


Nobody said it was easy

It's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard


Oh take me back to the start


I was just guessing

At numbers and figures

Pulling your puzzles apart


Questions of science

Science and progress

Do not speak as loud as my heart


Tell me you love me

Come back and haunt me

Oh and I rush to the start


Running in circles

Chasing our tails

Coming back as we are


Nobody said it was easy

Oh it's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be so hard


I'm going back to the start

 

My friends

haiiii..... apakabar? pasti baik kan? gimana nih pedekatenya berhasil gak? dia udah nembak kamu belum? kalau udah, wahh congratulations yappp ;-) semoga dihubungan kalian gak ada rintangan yang bikin kalian berpisah ._. kalau lagi berantem, sebaiknya kalian omongin aja secara baik-baik ;-) jangan nanti, nembak baik-baik ehh putus malah jadi musuhan-_- Oh iyaaa, longlast juga yapp, make it last kalo bisa ._. hehe. Yang udah pedekate lama banget tapi dia gak nembak-nembak kamu juga, duh sabar yaa teman. aku tau kok menunggu itu sangat melelahkan(?) -_-v harus kuat menjalani hiduppp \m/

mana nih suaranyaaa yang baru aja putus ._. baryah yah kawan. Lain hari pasti kamu dapet yang lebih baik dari dia. wehehhe. Yang baru dikasih harapan palsu mana nih? .-. Jangan terus bersedih yaa kawan, cowok/cewek didunia ini masih banyak kok yang lebih baik dari si dia ;-) huehehe. Kalau aku sih stabil (?) gak lagi galau, gak lagi bersedih. biasa aja sih sebenernya-_- kepingin galau tapi galauin siapa ?! ._. waks. kan ceritanya sudah ...... uknowlah-_- oke skip

aku punya sahabat nihh, namanya Tiara Aisha Devany ( Cipaa )
Cantik lho orangnya ;-p banyak yang bilang dia itu bagaikan 'bidadari jatuh dari surga dihadapanku' *eh itu mah lagu-_-* my cipa yang satu ini-_- orangnya baik, lugu banget malah ._. ngakak kalau inget waktu kelas 7 . lugunya gak ketulungan. kwkwk. tapi sekarang mahh udah engga-_- ngakunya syudah dewasa.-. tiara ini anaknya kalau udah panik mah gak ketulungan, kadang yang tangannya dingin lah, salah ngomonglah dan sebagainya-_- *kayak sendirinya engga aja* kadang suka pelit-_-VVVV suka marah-marah sendiri kadang._.v Trus sukanya sama kucing. lucu deh kucingnya (?) wkwkwk.

nah kalau yang ini namanya Mitha Ayudhina Prabowo

mitha orangnya baik lhooo ;--) kadang suka galau muluu-_- baryah teman. hidup tuh harus bahagia terus, kayak aku contohnya(?) wkwk. SINGLE !!! ;;) wkwk. trus mitha ini kalau ketawa ngakak, yaAllah mukanya merah+udah kayak orang nangis gitu ._. gawl deh pokoknyaa wkwk

Ini dia si Bokep (bocah kepoo) Habibah Hafshah

Habibah ini terobsesi sama satu cowok yanggg... *rahasia* wkwk. trus kadang suka labil gitu-_- mana kalau ngomong suka blak-blak'an lagi. wkwkwkkw jadi inget yang pas dikelas. *kelas hening* bibsy lagi duduk dipojokan, trus tibatiba bibah bilang "bibsy ngapain tuh? ngupil bib?" LOL XD seketika yang tadinya hening, jadi pada ketawa gitu-_- parah aja. wkwkwk. kalau handphonenya ilang nih yaa, paniknya masyaallah. sampe-sampe nangis-_- sambil berdoa "yaAllah temuin hape bibah yaAllah" anaknya gokil, seru, enak deh kalau diajak bercanda. gua suka gaya lo !! wkwkwk

Caroline Magdalena (Karolin Magdalena) -_-

Penggemar beratnya WILLIAM FEBRIANTO (bayem). pernah juga sempet digosipin mereka pacaran ;-O malahan william pernah ngasih boneka teddy bear unyu gitu ke carol ;-O duhh sosweet. wkwkwk. udah jadian aja elah. Anaknya gawl gitu, trus kalau ketawa yaampun. Carol? kadang sukaaa-_- nyebelin, hmm bisa dibilang nyolot._. seru kok seru anaknya \m/ dia jualan baju lho ;-) SINGLE !!!

Riska Amelia Lestari (Bamel) my cimitcimit.
dia baru jadian lhooo <3 wkwkwk. untuk my cimitcimit longlast yapp, make it last wokee ;-) oh iyaa, sebentar lagi dia mau ulangtahun ._. Traktir ya mel ;-p wkwkwk. Anaknya asik, baik, gokil. tapi kadang kalau ngatain orang-_- etdah, suaranya menggelegar gitu, hmmm... gak kebayang, bisabisa semua orang denger deh dari sabang sampai marauke(?) oh iya-_- kadang bamel yang satu ini suka nyekek-nyekek+gelitikin gitu. pftt..

Kartika Astiara Dewi
Tika anaknya baik bangeD lhoo. kadang kalau aku belum dijemput dia rela nungguin aku walau hujan menerpa, dia masih tetap berada disamping aku. haha. lebay. skip. suaranya sekseh lho._. trus kalau ketawaaa..... hmmm mengalihkan dunia. sukanya bawa bekel nasi uduk ;-3 enak lho nasi uduknya, murah lagi wkwkwk. udah taken ;-p Longlast kawan ;-)

Mustita Bibsy jaejae ._. (Biciiii)

bici yang satu ini, adalah kalangan orang yang sangat langka(?) why? i don't know-_- wkwk. Imoedh kan dia? hahaha. LAJANG LHO !!! bisa hubungi nomer dibawah ini ...... lanjut. Bici orangnya asikk, baikk banged, perhatian gitu. tapi kadang kalau lagi kesel sama orang ........-_- hmm banget. Gak ada lo? gak seru.

Khabbatul Izzah (ijaahhhh)

ijahh yang satu ini cantik kann? ;;) ketua kelas juga lagi. hmmm... Asik, baik banged <3 alim pokoknyaa. dia selalu nemenin aku pulang, kalau aku lagi gak ikut jemputan<3 wkwkwk pokoknyaa baik deh. oh iyaaa single lohh ;-) -_-

William Febrianto (bayem)
kenapa dikasih julukan bayem? hmm... entahlah. Cocok gak sih william sama carol? cocok aja udah._. william orangnya asik, freak, hmmm... apalagi ya? baik kok baik. kadang ngomongnya suka gak jelas gitu-_- best friendnya si Danan Jaya XD (boboho) ohh iyaa katanya sih ya, banyak yang suka gitu ;-p waks ngakak. masih single kok tenang. wkwk.

Frans Halason -_-
DICARI ANAK HILANG !! wkwkwk canda frans-_- yang satu ini gokil abis. kadang suka freak gitu, trus yang ngakaknya dulu pas kelas delapan penah jogetjoget lagunya agnes yang "cinta iniii .......~ kadangkadang tak ada logika" wakakakaka. ngakak choy.

Bima Budhi ._.
hmm... bima anaknya seru, gokil, seru diajak curhat(?) sudah taken yang pastinya~ longlast bro sama pacarnya. keep unyuminyi, make it lastt ;-)

Andre

Banyak yang bilang sih dia kece-_- baik kok orangnya, seru wakakakaka. sudah taken !! longlast yaa bro sama pacarnyaaa ;-) make it last. aminn.

sekian.